A few of the poems I will be submitting are from a difficult time in my life, a time when a lot of things were going on and my family life was pretty rough.

"Suffocated"

Every day it seems,

Something new is going on.

Sometimes good, sometimes bad,

Sometimes I am the King, others the pawn.

There are so many changes,

Making me so frustrated.

It seems like there is nothing I can do,

Just sit back and be suffocated.

Suffocated to the point,

Where my heart can't breathe anymore.

So "out of whack" with things,

So many obstacles I can't just ignore.

A new pain comes every day,

Some stay all day long.

Wondering with every new day,

What exactly am I doing wrong?

Sympathy from other people,

Is that what I really need?

Feeling so lost all of the time,

I need something to heal me when I bleed.

Growing weaker with every passing moment,

From what is going on in my mind.

The never ending sorrow of things,

Fearing what I will never be able to find.

Blazing, scorching pain,

Buried deeply within my skin.

Looking so hard, never finding,

Anything good that might lie within.

Hoping someday I will find that key,

Unlocking what it is that is really true.

Maybe it is not even there.

Then what will I do?