"What Am I Looking For"

Sometimes I can get lost,

I don't have to be anywhere.

I just sit in my room,

Wondering why life seems so unfair.

Sometimes I just sit and pray,

But I wondering if there is anyone on the other side.

My only choice is to talk to myself,

In whom else would I confide?

I tell myself it is okay to cry all the time,

Or at least that is what I say.

When I know that my tears,

Won't fade or ever go away.

Sometimes I like to be alone,

Only because there is no one there.

I often think about hurting myself,

Would anyone honestly care?

I can't see any happiness today might bring,

Because yesterday's sadness is still locked in my head.

I think about the stupid things I have done,

All the completely dumb things I have said.

There are times I don't even feel the pain,

My brain has gone completely numb.

Maybe I am just imagining things,

Why do I think I am so dumb?

I don't know if there is any room left,

Anywhere for me to go anymore.

I don't even know where to look,

When I don't even know what I am looking for.